25 Things I Wish I knew When I was A Little Girl

  1. Those siestas (a.k.a afternoon naps) that your grandma keeps shoving down your throat will be missed as you grow older.
  2. You will lose a lot of sleep in college.
  3. You have to eat a lot of bananas so you wouldn’t have potassium problems.
  4. You will loathe the pink princess dress that you like right now. You’ll start hating it when you turn 10.
  5. The “relationships” your elementary school classmates have is not as serious as you thought, though some of them did get pregnant early… just be glad you are not one of them.
  6. You and your younger brother will stay close.182289_189873001034079_5985894_n
  7. Your younger brother who looks like whale will grow up to be way taller than you, he’ll also have a better active life than you.
  8. You will end up looking like a whale when you turn 16 and in your first year of college.fat-ass-sonuvabitch
  9. You will not graduate on time… But no worries I haven’t graduated as well. 😛
  10. Your parents will go on their separate ways when you turn 15.
  11. You will rarely draw anything at the 19.
  12. You need to learn how to save money.
  13. The makeup that you loathed so much in your early teens will be your creative outlet when you reach 17-onwards.
  14. You will get bullied in high school, bring a lot of courage with you on your first day.
  15. You’ll still love anime.
  16. You will be an avid shipper.
  17. You’ll still like wearing heels.
  18. You’ll have a baby half-brother on the year 2007, and a baby half-sister on 2015. photo1584e001
  19. Mestiza girls are going to be your type.
  20. You’ll stop chorale singing at age 16.
  21. You’ll learn to sing properly at 18. You won’t struggle with high notes anymore. 😉
  22. You’ll end up being a cat person instead of the dog person that you were raised to be. 😀 photo5763
  23. You can tell your mom that your crush right now is a girl.
  24. You’ll fell in love with a girl (or three).
  25. Everything won’t be easy, but it’s gonna be okay.

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New Blog! And My Twitter Account!

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Hi there people! So, I decided to make another blog which I will dub as the “Bullshit Blog“. So why the fucking hell did I created another blog? Well, because there are a lot of things in my head that I cannot post here, this blog is something I consider as my “Serious Blog” (Yep I still consider this fucker serious, despite all the profanity and humor involved here…) I post more serious topics here, from makeup reviews to random issues and even some historical and educational shit. But that bullshit blog is going to be more of a playground, totally random and full of bullshit that might fill you with multiple emotions at the same damn time. Basically that is blog where I can go full retard.

So if you wanna see some shits and giggles from yours truly, please feel free to visit my other blog, you can click on that link on the first sentence to see the “about” page of the new blog or you can click “Here” to go straight to the homepage. Also later I will post the review of the product I mentioned on “this” post. And here is my twitter account, where you can follow me if you want to: @BlankPaperTowel. 😀

Another thing my “facebook page” is still active… just saying… :-/

So, that’ll all for now folks and see you all later! 😉

 

I Have Short Hair. So What?

So yep, a week ago I got my hair chopped off, for no reason other than it’s getting hard to manage; I was never really a fan of long hair for myself. I have been having short hair cuts since 2014. I am actually a big fan of wash and wear hair. And this is it, I wash it, comb it a little bit then I leave the house, no hassle. (AND THAT IS WHY I CAN NEVER BE A BEAUTY GURU…)

But why is it such a big fucking deal to some people?

Some said it’s cool, some people said it looked good, my mom freaked out, some said I looked like a dude, some said I looked like a lesbian (Which I am…), and there is one douche bag  who said (“jokingly”) that I looked like a “disgusting trans-person”… I wanna punch that girl in the face, not really because she called me trans, but mostly because she called transgenders disgusting. She’s lucky we were in church and I do not wanna cause a scene, not when my grandma is a few feet away. There is nothing bad about being trans, remember that. And it sucks that most of the people in the Philippines have problem with LGBT people, in here we are tolerated, but not really accepted, but this is an issue for some other time, let’s go back to the main topic.

So why is hair such a huge fucking thing in a girl’s like and does it really make you less of a woman if you want to cut it short?

Well , nope… cutting your hair short should not be a fucking big deal, it’s your damn hair. And, no cutting it won’t make you less of a woman. You see, I think hair is being too glamorized in fashion and everywhere else. But really, your hair is just one part of you, it does not make up everything that you are, so does your makeup, body, money, educational attainment etc. These are only aspects of you, not who you really are.

So do whatever the fuck you want with your body, as long as you don’t harm yourself or others around you. Because really no one’s opinion of you should matter aside from the opinions YOU and the IMPORTANT PEOPLE in your life have. So feel free to do shit as you please if they have a problem with it, it’s their fuciing problem; not yours. Be yourself, because really fuckers are always going to exist, and they will fuck you up if you listen to them.

So, that’s all for now folks and see you all later. 🙂

Wanna talk to me? Just visit my Facebook page, I’ll be happy to answer your questions. https://www.facebook.com/Summer-March-940849572694387

Slytherin Inspired Makeup Look

I’ve always been a Harry Potter fan… I’ve been a fan since I was six years-old, since that Christmas when my grandpa bought a (this might make you hate me…) pirated CD of it and watched it with my brother and I. I remember my family owning a family computer game console that based on it back when I was in my fist few years of grade school.

Then came 2011 when I fist tried the sorting hat quiz on Pottermore and lo and behold! I got Slytherin; and no I’m not an evil, sadistic son of a bitch like Tom Marvolo Riddle. But I have to admit that I am cunning and ambitious… I’m also loyal to a fault until the person I’m loyal to either betray me, back stab me, use me (like I’ll ever let them)or do things out of my moral code. Let’s just say that I’m loyal, but I’m not stupid; I’m loyal to people who are loyal to me. I’m no saint either, I can cut a bitch if I have too.

 

This look is actually pretty easy you can pretty much use any shimmery/metallic green and silver eyeshadow for the whole look… and green liners are also  must. So, what I did first is make my face paler than usual, just because I think that goes well with the look itself, then I contoured with the coolest cool toned matte brown eyeshadow I have, after that I used a violet eyeshadow as blush, and I highlighted my nose and my forehead using a white eyeshadow, and I used a shimmery silver eyeshadow for my cheek and inner corner highlight.

For the lips; I covered my lips first with the leftover foundation on my blending sponge, then I used a green jumbo pencil as a base allover my lips,  then  I used a metallic green eyeshadow to set the base, the I took a net, put it on top of my lip and used it as a stencil for the silver scales (I don’t have the patience to paint them on individually… 😛 ) after putting a liberal amount of silver, pull the net off carefully. You can stop at that; but I added some black shadow on the outer corners for shading.

The eyes is pretty easy, actually you can do pretty much any eye look you want from subtle to outright menacing, but I’ll tell you what I did anyway. Actually you’ll use almost everything you used on your face and your lips for the eyes! Prime your eyes first, then use the green pencil on your lid only and blend it out with a small brush. After that use a light brown shade as a transition color for the lids and gradually add deeper shades as you go, then I used the same green eyeshadow all over the lid, I also picked a light green and popped it on the middle, but that is optional, and I used the same silver on my inner corners and I used the same green liner on the bottom lids! And done!

By the way… I used a liquid liner for my wing, a black pencil liner, with a little bit of shimmer on the lower water line and I used downright black brow powder for my brows, also I added scales on the contour areas on my forehead and my jaw using the same method I used on my lips.

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And what you see is the result!

So I hope you had fun reading this and I hope you have a nice day and see you all later! 😀

 

It’s Summer: Part 3

So this is the final post in my “It’s Summer” Series, in this one I will talk about the do’s and dont’s with hair care during the Philippine summer season.

Okay, firstly; I’ll tell you this fact… if you get out of your house with wet hair during the Philippine summer; you might be surprised to see your hair dry in under 30 minutes. Yep, under 30 minutes. So I can vouch for it if you see a conditioner ad on the T.V. that says “shampoo isn’t enough”… it really isn’t enough… So I’m going to suggest using a conditioner after washing your hair and using leave-in conditioner every time you go outside.

For hair conditioners, and hair products in general I do recommend the brand Dove, so far I haven’t been disappointed in any of their products, I recommend using the gold and blue ones though, the pink is for straightening so products on this line can get a little bit drying which you don’t want. Also, Palmolive, Pantene and Shokubutsu Hana are all good too!

Like I said, your hair will dry in under 30 minutes… no need for a blow dryer, just go outside for a walk and your hair will go from soggy to crispy in under 30 minutes. And that is the main reason why I’m going to suggest this product… Heat protectant spray.

I know that most of the time people only use that when they were going to do heat styling; but trust me on this… using a heat protectant spray on your hair before going outside would save your hair.

Also if you can’t find a heat protectant spray here or if you just don’t like them in general, then just keep your hair hydrated, one way is by using leave in conditioner regularly all throughout the day.

Another way is to use oils… but please use it only on the tips of your hair up the middle, do not put it on your scalp. Because it will mix with your scalps natural oil and it won’t be pleasant; but it’s good for keeping your hair hydrated. The most popularly used here is Vitress… but you can find a cheaper alternative from Hortaleza Professional that can be bought from HBC, the same place where you can get Sansan cosmetics. I can say that both brands are good since I’ve been using their products for years.

Also I found this:

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I got this from a local beauty supply store for Php120.00 it is a hair oil and it also has sunscreen properties. And it also smell like olive oil. And it has vitamin E. It is going to be a part of my birthday haul… I use it after I wash my hair and before I go out.

Also, get a good comb or a good hair brush; since the humid air and sudden wind gusts can bring massive tangles on your hair so I suggest getting one. Also a bandana or hat is a good companion.

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good thing I got this a few months ago…

And if you want to skip more than  half of this post (because using conditioner is a must!!!)… get an umbrella.

I hope this helps, I hope you have a nice day and see you all later! 😀

 

I Have 50 Followers… O.O

Okay, my dumb ass just realized that I made 50 followers almost a week ago. 50… That was actually more than what I thought I’d have… I’m being honest here… I really am. I started this blog in 2013, and back in those days I do not have a fucking idea where this is going…

Well, all I want to say is thank you! To those who follow me, and to those who reads my stuff.

That’s all for now folks and see you all later! 😉

What Type of Person Am I?

I’m the type of person who will laugh at almost anything, sometimes even on the concept of death. You can call me anything you want and I wouldn’t care. Maybe I’ll act like I do, since that is what society is expecting; but really I don’t give a flying fuck. Actually nowadays, giving a fuck seems to be a problem for me, since I just can’t give a fuck about anything. But I’ll get a laugh out of almost anything.

But there are certain things that can get on my nerves… for example if you insult my mother, brother or anyone else in my family. You can expect a punch in the face or maybe a kick in the stomach. I wouldn’t care who the flying fuck you are. And I’m paranoid for the safety of people who are close to me. To the point that when I go to a house I tend to try and find where items that can be used for self defense like knives, brooms and even forks are located, just in case that some bad people would come and barge in… at least I could defend myself and the people with me. And even if I die, at least I served as a diversion and the people with me can escape.

Aside from that, I tend to always have a pen inside my pocket or in my bag, regardless of where I’m going. I do that, because of two reasons; the first reason is because I might need to write something, like when inspiration hits. The other is back to self defense, a pen is actually a very effective self defense tool, even better than pepper spray and rape whistle in my opinion, since you can just jam that on on a person’s leg or eye ( O.o >>> I’m pretty sure you are making this face right now…).

So to put things short, I’m a bit of a sociopath… But really I won’t hurt anyone unless they gave a reason. I’m always ready to defend myself or the people close to me. I was not raised in a sheltered environment. I saw people get killed, I saw a man bleeding on the side of the damn highway because someone shot him in the head, I saw people chasing each other with knives and I’ve been with enough fake people to know when people are acting like a fake bitch in front of me.

I’ve felt hunger, I’ve known the feeling of wanting desperately to eat, but not being able to do so because you can’t afford shit. I know the feeling of having a dead best friend, since my best friend was shot dead in 2014… I know the feeling of seeing someone dying and not being able to help… because I also needed help. I know the feeling of crying helplessly like a child because everything in my life is falling apart in front of me and I can’t do shit about it.

I know the feeling of seeing my parents cry because they feel like they failed as a parent. I know the feeling of walking a kilometer or more just to get some cash so my brother and I could go to school. I know the feeling of seeing my brother crying because he really want to go to school but he can’t.

I learned  to hold in my own tears, and to suck it up; because people around me are already bawling their fucking eyes out.

But with these experiences, I learned a lot of things. I learned to value what I have, I learned to value the people around me, I learned to be independent, I learned to not wait for things, but get them myself, I learned to fight, I learned to be aware of the things around me. And most of all, I learned to grow up. (and I learn how to value my money… -_- ) I learned that after everything the world wont wait up for me, I need to get up and move on.

The things I went through might seem extreme to some people but trust me, there are a lot of people that experienced and still experiencing much worse. I actually still consider myself pretty lucky. I have a roof over my head, I have clothes on, I have a family, I still get to eat. And I still breathe.

I didn’t make this post to solicit pity, or kindness; because I hate being pitied the most… I just made made this frankly because I want to… I’m not ashamed of who I am, I am not ashamed to tell people the things I’ve experienced. I’m not afraid to tell you who I am… I’m a woman, I’m a part of the LGBT community, I’m a Filipino, I’m a christian, I’m almost 21, I’m a cat person, I’m a Slytherin (in Pottermore), I’m an Aries, I’m alive.

And I wouldn’t change everything even if given the chance to do so. Because I’m proud of who I am.

(and here is the part when I say: thanks for reading… and see you all later. 🙂 )